Dream clients and diarrhea

In the last few weeks, I’ve been working with a dream client. Every time I finish a Skype call with her, I jump around with glee. I can’t believe how lucky I am to be working with her and building her website.

A few days ago, we had another call and set a date for her site to go live. After our call finished, I worked a little more and then got violently ill – diarrhea and vomiting. Everyone else was feeling fine, and I didn’t have a fever, so I made a beeline for the bookshelf and looked up both conditions in Louise Hay’s book, “You Can Heal Your Life.”

According to Louise…
The probable cause of diarrhea is fear, rejection, or running off.
The probable cause of vomiting is a violent rejection of ideas or fear of the new.

How could I be afraid of having a dream client? Why would working with someone I respect deeply and who makes my heart burst with joy cause my body to react in such a way?

Pausing to sit with the question, I heard a little voice whispering things like – it’s too good to be true…this is a fluke…she’s only working with you because she knows you…she doesn’t know any better… you’re fooling her and if she knew better, she would hire a more skilled designer/coder…

What the heck? Such stories! Setting aside how these voices were questioning my client’s judgment ability (sorry!), I had to consider what they were saying about me?

Part of me knew the voices were speaking nonsense, but my body’s reaction was very real. Either a part of me really believed it, or perhaps, this was simply an Upper Limit Problem.

I recently found Gay Hendricks’ book, “The Big Leap,” and it dives deep into upper limit problems. He talks about how we tend to create conditions or situations that revert us back to what feels comfortable or familiar when we reach beyond our comfort zone.

Of course, there is nothing comfortable about vomiting. Still, if I’m too sick to work for my client, I won’t have a client. Not having clients and not having dream clients IS something familiar. I knew how to be with that.

I decided to choose another way. Sitting there with Louise’s book, I decided to move beyond the fear and become comfortable with this new state of being where I get to work with people who fill my heart with joy.

After drinking a cup of mint tea and sitting with the new thought patterns, I took a nap. I woke up feeling much better. Several hours later, we had a lovely dinner, and my stomach was just fine.

I am now convinced. There is nothing better than Louise Hay, mint tea, and a good nap for overcoming upper limits posing as physical ailments!

How about you? Have you ever manifested physical ailments as a way to protect yourself from reaching beyond an upper limit? What did you do to overcome it?