Source is always present – Finding “Yoyu” [Excerpt 35]

New to the story?

If you are new here, Finding “Yoyu” is a memoir about how I juggled end-of-life care for my mother-in-law, tried to understand and navigate Alzheimer’s for my father-in-law, and then helped my husband through a chemo-free recovery from stage 3 colon cancer – all in the same year. Did I mention that we live in Japan and that my in-laws don’t speak English?! I wrote the book in 2018 and then shelved it until a friend challenged me to finish editing it by sharing one section every week. I’m on week 35 and counting my way to 50!

What’s happening at this point in the book?

The day arrived for Akira’s surgery, during which 23 cm (9 inches) of his colon, including the malignant tumor, were removed. I went to the hospital early that morning to support him. I packed a lunch and felt ready for the long day, but later realized that I had forgotten to ask anyone to support me!

How do you take care of yourself when you’re loved one is having a medical procedure? Exhausted and with no more “yoyu,” I got help from an unexpected source.

Listen to the excerpt above to find out what made me pass out, how I redeemed myself, and finally, how I eventually got home the day Akira had surgery even though I had completely run out of “yoyu.”

What is yoyu?

Yoyu is a Japanese word to express whether or not you have enough wherewithal, capacity, or bandwidth. It’s often used in phrases such as “I don’t have enough time.” Or, “I can’t afford that.” You can also use it to express your wherewithal physically, mentally, and emotionally. When you say, “I don’t have yoyu,” in Japanese, everyone infers from context what you mean. Though I am fluent in Japanese, I didn’t really get the full meaning until I met a cashier who didn’t have yoyu.

About the book, Finding “Yoyu”

A few years ago, we moved my husband’s parents from a rural part of Japan to live with us in Tokyo in our tiny 800 square foot (73 square-meter) condo. My book, Finding “Yoyu,” is about what it took to decide to move them. It’s also about navigating the Japanese health care system and finding an appropriate nursing home for my mother-in-law while helping my father-in-law transition from a lifetime of farming to retirement in the big city. It’s about how we discovered he had Alzheimer’s, and my husband had stage 3 colon cancer. Finally, it’s about how I managed to support these two men and keep (or find!) my yoyu all while going through a career change.

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