My website is a reflection of me

Today I choose to make my website and my services a reflection of all of me and all that I believe.

For years, I felt like there had to be two of me. I chalked it up to being a Gemini, and more recently an introvert (an INFJ to be exact). There was the public Marci I wore like a costume to interact with others and run my business. And then there was the private Marci who thought differently than others. Or, so I thought.

I assumed that what I thought about, read about and talked about as private Marci was too “far out” for other people. I thought I wouldn’t be taken seriously. Or, arrogantly, I thought people weren’t ready to hear it. Sometimes it felt like I was walking around acting as my public self with my private self floating nearby – accessible but not incarnate.

Then, a few months ago I sat bone-tired on the side of my bed and thought I don’t want to be here anymore. It was ridiculous because I had already come through to the other side of a difficult year learning how to be a caregiver for a family member with cancer and another with Alzheimer’s. You can read about my side-of-the-bed epiphany in my post about the woodpecker.

What I didn’t share in the woodpecker post is what exactly made me so flipping angry I fell bone-tired into that bed. It was an email from James Wedmore. I’m on his mailing list, and if you’re not, you should be! I was stunned and ecstatic when I read the news of the Mind Your Business podcast and how he had come out with his woo. And then I got angry. I was furious! Not at James, of course. At myself!

It was a pivotal moment. The trigger. All along, the very things I marginalized or even tried to hide in order to have a successful business were all the things James was doing behind the scenes. I was dumbfounded by the irony.

You see, I’ve been following James for several years. He’s a smart, funny, generous and very approachable introvert with a wildly successful online business. I consciously, yes deliberately, chose James to represent all the “responsible” and left-brained things I need to do in order to have a successful business. I looked to his teachings, his courses, his Facebook groups for tips and tools to grow my business. I very carefully and consciously put both my business and James in the camp with my public self, that left-brained non-woo-woo side of me.

I’m very grateful to James and will no longer hide behind a mask or censor what I believe. I am Marci. I believe in a lot of things that make some people uncomfortable. I believe in and use woo in my daily life. This is who I am, and it’s OK. It’s OK to be me.

Sounds good, right? The truth is this was easier to think and say than actually do. Within a few days of receiving the email from James, I did launch a new website showcasing my own brand of woo – lightmessagesoflove.com (Update! I merged my websites, and the messages are now right here). And, I started getting orders for intuitive messages right away. I also got a lot of great feedback and encouragement to keep going.

But, recently I had to own up to the fact that I was still hiding. I was afraid to talk about and put these intuitive messages on a site with my other professional services. I was afraid of what people would think. Not anymore. Now my web design work and channeling work are all on one site – this site.

This is who I am. This is what I do. I love building websites. And, I love receiving intuitive messages.

Are you ready to come out with your woo? I did and you can, too! Now my website is a growing reflection of me. How about your website? Does it reflect all of you? If not, what can you do to change it today?